23 January 2012


So I’ve been contemplating – should I or should I not POAS.

I didn’t want to because I didn’t want to confirm anything. Not a possible positive and definitely not a negative, but yesterday morning it was my 10th day of AF not arriving, and I started to get a bit worried. I have no confirmation of anything, and what if something is wrong.

So I actually woke up early yesterday morning, I just think that everything was playing on my mind and went to the bathroom and tested, and immediately it showed the below

The test came out negative! Is this another BFN? What the hell is happening with my body right now? My ovaries cramp it’s painful and there is still no flow not even spotting, and I know for a fact that I did not miscalculate my dates. I have them marked down in my calendar and I double checked, triple checked and I have definitely calculated it correctly

What’s up? I need to phone someone, and I'm a bit confused as to who to phone right now. I haven’t been to the fertility clinic in a year, and what if I just go to the GP for a blood test and something else is wrong. I know that my progesterone has always been a problem

What to do, what to do?

19 January 2012


So I'm standing and typing the message while I'm waiting for hubby to finish off at work. At last I have some time to quickly post anything on my blog.

It has been a awesome year so far and 2011, had a number of positive things for me. I think one of the most critical (not necessarily positive) things for me was that I had a break from IF and all the planning, appointment and then disappointments, and this year became the year of focus again for us.
Today I thought I'll give you a update on that exactly.

So I was planning to go back to the clinic this month, but I'm in a bit of a dilemma. I have a 26-28 day cycle but this month I'm sitting on day 33 today and AF has still not arrived. WTH? I normally don't have this. I have a lot of cramping and it feels that it's time for her, but nothing yet. So I suppose I would have to wait and see. Or maybe I really counted my days wrong!

I don't know if maybe just maybe by the grace of God I might be... No I can't think that right now. I haven't even tested yet. Don't want the disappointment but something is up...

So that's me.. And where I am, how are you?

** Update 20/01/2012 - still nothing
** Update 21/01/2012 - Nothing - thinking I should POAS
** Update 22/01/2012 - Nothing (see new Post)