09 April 2008


I know I haven’t been the best blogger ever, but I just couldn’t get myself to write anything these couple of days. I just couldn’t pick myself out of the slump. Dealing with family and family problems, dealing with my own issues and resentments has just become so much that I lost perspective. At least I managed to squeeze in some time for personal activities, I never use to get a lot of time for myself as one tend to run after everyone else, but I decided that it’s time to look at for Stefanie, and I am. I started spinning, which is great fun, my sister in law joined me about 5 days ago, and she is also now spinning with me every Monday to Thursday, which gives her some personal time to. Some days I just wonder why it is that people need to try and exhaust themselves to try and forget what they are going through emotionally. I haven’t been able to go back for acupuncture, nor have I seen the inside of the doctors rooms since 25 March 2008, just can’t seem to focus anymore. Even though hubby thinks that I just don’t want any children now. I don’t think he really understand how I feel, hey I don’t even know myself how I feel, but I think my mindset is just not right. I have read all the blogs ladies who are on the exact same journey and try and find perspective on my life again, but I just find it so difficult. And there I go again. The negative little old me, I don’t want to feel this way, and I don’t want to feel like the victim in this story, but I do feel sorry for myself at this point in time, I just need to find a way to pick up my chin again. I’m sure I will work through this; I know I’m stronger than this. I want to end this message with the following: The beauty of life doesn’t depend on how happy you are... But on how happy others can be because of YOU!!! "Never let yesterday's disappointments overshadow tomorrow's dreams"


  1. Stefanie,
    I know it must be very difficult for you sweetie. You know this is not an easy road we travel on. Keep faith, life does have something in store for us all. May you find your way through this time, and may you be blessed to make the right decision.

  2. Hi there,
    Went through a very similar ordeal, and really understand what you're experiencing. It's not a very easy thing to go through, but you'll pick yourself up.

    Remember that there are many supportive people on the forum who will assist you through the time. Come and chat

  3. You are in my thoughts. I don't always get the time to read your blog, but when I do, I discover so much about you. Thank you for sharing your experiences.

  4. Hi Stef,
    Thanks for sharing your thoughts on what you are going through. Whatever happens, I pray that you & Pieter continue to support one another and live life to it's fullest.

    Love ya


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