BFN

Thanks for all the good wishes and sending my **good vibes** and baby dust I really appreciated it. Unfortunately I'm counting another BFN on my Charts...

THE RESULTS **drumroll please**

Ha I don’t really need the drum roll today, but I thought I needed some sound of excitement today.

Anyway, I had a progesterone test done last week Friday, which the results is captured in one of my previous posts. It really didn’t come out high. The on Monday IF clinic gave me a call as Dr was concerned with the fact that after using all these meds and injections my progesterone did sweet nothing.

So Yesterday off I went to another lab to have the same test done to see if we were getting the same results, but it was way-way-way better. The results in fact were 182 which have a variance of 174 in comparison to the test done of Friday last week. So now what happened? Was the previous result by any chance wrong???

With the progesterone test, we also had our official pregnancy test….

Before I spill the results, I want to thank all of you who were supportive this cycle and who did a prayer for us, but unfortunately we’re counting another BFN on our charts.

So for now, I’m going into my feeling sorry for myself spot… and would have to get myself out of the slump all over again.

ICLW Week!

Good day everyone

Thank you for stopping by, I know that most of you are stopping by for ICLW, and hope that I will find more friends and readers through out this week.

I wanted to leave you all with a little thought for the week

The Power

Don't underestimate the power of a touch a smile a kind word a listening ear an honest compliment or the smallest act of caring all of which have the potential to turn a life around Life ends when you stop Dreaming, Hope ends when you stop Believing, Love ends when you stop Caring, Friendship ends when you stop Sharing. When you find a dream inside your heart,

Don't ever let it go,

For dreams are the tiny seeds, from which Beautiful Tomorrows Grow!

Have a Wonderful Week!

For those of you who have been following my blog…

CD1 started on the 17th which I was not to happy about, but I started my meds (Estrogen) on Thursday and started with the injections and Clomid on Saturday, and then again another 2 injections this morning. Hopefully my body will produce more follies this time round and not just one. We have our Scan on Sunday and I’m trying to be very optimistic about it and will hopefully receive our blood test results which I had done last week.

So I’ll keep you posted!

WHY OH WHY AGAIN

I want to thank everyone who left messages, held thumbs and who were there for me, but once again the blood works came back, and I can officially mark another BFN on my chart. I really wished that this time it would happen for us, but it didn't. So I’m stopping all the meds today, and now await AF...

IT'S AN OFFICIAL BFN

Okay, so this morning while I did my blood work the lady that took the blood mentioned that on Monday when I did my first blood, just after me a 16 year old girl also did the same blood test. Hers of cause turned out positive and apparently she was devastated, but on the other hand there is me... so desperate, so hopeful and yet I am unable to obtain a BFP. So while I was listening this morning I truly hoped that this will be my day, but yet it isn't! Why, why, why... So I now received the results of my 2nd test which were done today, and it official. It's definitely not a positive. So no more tablets and Crinone gel for now. I'm awaiting AF which needs to show up before Friday next week, if it doesn't I will get some medication to bring it on... So there we have it.

AND LET'S JUST ADD ANOTHER

Got a call from the Drs offices just now, and I can officially add another BFN on my chart. I need to retest on Friday as she (the nurse) mentioned its possible for a false negative, but the chance is slim. So there we have it, AF needs to arrive, which still hasn't and by Friday if AF isn't here yet they'll give me stuff to make her arrive...

Hide Away

And so Friday arrived in all it glory, and what a beautiful morning it was. I was so eager to go for my blood test seeing that AF still hasn’t arrived, so off I went to get ready. Oops it was a bit early though so I had to sit and wait for the offices to open before I go. Anyway, as I sat there waiting in anticipation for the one thing that could be the best day of my life AF arrived, and with that all the emotions, heartache, self-pity, hatred and so this list could grow and grow, I really were so exited, and I knew not to get my hopes to high but I did, and that really brought me back to earth with a BIG BANG! So I contacted the clinic to confirm that AF arrived as per our agreement, Dr then prescribed more meds (Estrofem) due to the fact that the blood test on day 23 of my cycle indicated that my progesterone levels were not satisfactory, he also gave me Clomid which I need to use for a couple of days. Then on the 14th day, I’ll return for a scan. Darn, I really got my hopes up this time, and I really couldn't stop crying this weekend, I am just unable to pick my head up and face everything at this point in time. So for now, I'll be going in hide away until I can find away to face life again

Testing 1…2…3 = BFN

Just a quick note on the posing added acupuncture session 8… I had to do the pregnancy testing as it still seamed as if I might be pregnant. It turned out a BFN

What a start to a day

Another day arrived with all it surprises, this morning when I woke up I went down on my knees and really prayed so hard, I really want to be pregnant. After I prayed the normal daily routine started, shower, get dressed and off we go to work. We still had a chat in the car about the fact that I might be pregnant, and were discussing how and when we will actually let the family know… Anyway, got to work at about 8:00 this morning, because of traffic congestions, and as I walked in, I had to run to the loo… it felt as if my bladder was about to fall out, sjoe, ran and Ya… just guess what… She came, CD1 started, lightly though, but she’s here. I feel so de-motivated, so disgusted, so angry, so pitiful… I just want to sit in my little corner ad cry for the day! And I know I need to pick myself right back up, but what you know and what you’re up to is two very different things. Well now you have it, I guess we were all just wrong, I must have known, I must have known…!