TESTING, TESTING 123

Okay so the whole weekend I've been wondering whether I should test or not test, but I thought let me be a good girl and wait it out as I would have needed to wait a additional 2 days anyway. Today is CD26 and Dr requested the test for today.

So a lot of people are asking me how I feel... and really how do I feel. I'm hoping and praying, I can’t really think of anything else at this stage and I'm sore. My breasts are still so tender that some nights I wake up when I turned because of something touching my breasts. Overall that's the only thing that's really bugging me except for a little bit of slight cramps on my left side but I really can't say what this feeling is, and now it's time to wait my couple of hours and receive my results

Will keep you posted

MISSION ACCOMPLISH

Herewith a very quick update on what happened last night. I added it into one comment but not sure if you’ll see it.

So last night while I was on training, I really had to inject my Ovidrel injection, however seeing that I’m always to scared to just inject myself I normally go to the closes emergency service but this time I really couldn’t as I had training during the time period in which I had to do the injection. So off I went. First I sat down, I could feel my body starting to shake from nervousness I pinched the skin on my stomach and I thought now or never and I stuck it in.

I have to say it actually felt better that someone else injecting you. It didn’t feel as sore.

So ladies and gentlemen MISSION ACCOMPLISHED! I DID IT!

O MY GREATNESS... IT'S ME AND THE NEEDLE

Okay so I have class tonight till 9:30 and it so happens that I have to get my Ovidrel injection between 19:00 – 20:00. Hmmm so what am I going to do? I suppose the only thing I can do is to brace myself… and just go for the prick Stef, just go for it.

JIP, like you all know I have never been able to inject myself, and today I’m forced. O my, o my, o my please let me just build up the courage to do this

UPDATE ON CD12 SCAN

Okay so this morning was my CD12 scan, and I was really not in the best of moods. See I’ve been going to our local hospital for my injections every morning and so I managed to have found the most insensitive sister you could ever have. Last week she was asking me when we will decide to just let it go and give up and then on Saturday she asked why I rather don’t go to my house doctor to get the injections. Man let me tell you both times I really had to bite my lip, as I would have attacked her and most likely would have end up in jail. So this morning I phoned the Head Sister in the emergency services and explained everything to her and told her that I really didn’t appreciate these comments and that next time I will not bite my lip, but I’ll say the most rudest thing to her I could think of at that moment…. And now I’ll be thinking of that comment and be prepared….!

Now back to CD12, I really like my Doctor, at the most darkest times he really tries his best to make you feel so much better, he asked me how the injections was, explained again how I should administer them myself and then after I told him about my bad experience at the hospital he said…. “Stuff the people…. We are the people, and don’t you let anyone tell you what to do. It’s all in your hands” so off I went after this discussion and went for my scan. On my left side I didn't stimulate and there are many follies, but they are so small, they will not grow quick enough, then on my right side there are 2 nice follies. One measuring 15.1 and the other 17.3, so I’ll be going for my Ovidrel injection tomorrow night, but seeing that my body is so slow with everything where I normally have the IUI procedure done the next day, we will only have it done Pre-ovulation on Thursday and Post Ovulation on Friday and then off cause the 2 week wait starts.

That’s my quick update for today.

Have a stunning week; we have cold wet weather it feels like winter is here…

THE RESULTS **drumroll please**

Ha I don’t really need the drum roll today, but I thought I needed some sound of excitement today.

Anyway, I had a progesterone test done last week Friday, which the results is captured in one of my previous posts. It really didn’t come out high. The on Monday IF clinic gave me a call as Dr was concerned with the fact that after using all these meds and injections my progesterone did sweet nothing.

So Yesterday off I went to another lab to have the same test done to see if we were getting the same results, but it was way-way-way better. The results in fact were 182 which have a variance of 174 in comparison to the test done of Friday last week. So now what happened? Was the previous result by any chance wrong???

With the progesterone test, we also had our official pregnancy test….

Before I spill the results, I want to thank all of you who were supportive this cycle and who did a prayer for us, but unfortunately we’re counting another BFN on our charts.

So for now, I’m going into my feeling sorry for myself spot… and would have to get myself out of the slump all over again.

THE RESULTS ARE IN!

I received a call yesterday from the IF Clinic, and to everyones’ amazement, with all the meds and injections my progesterone level only raised to 8, and by the sound of it they were not very happy with the results. They have requested another progesterone test on the blood, and I’m now waiting for my feedback as they would need to phone me back with a plan of action...

So I’m already feeling teary.... but I'm now also not understanding casue the info I found explains the following

hCG levels during pregnancy
(in weeks since last menstrual period)

• 3 weeks LMP 5 - 50 mIU/ml
• 4 weeks LMP 5 - 426 mIU/ml
• 5 weeks LMP 18 - 7,340 mIU/ml
• 6 weeks LMP 1,080 - 56,500 mIU/ml
• 7 - 8 weeks LMP 7, 650 - 229,000 mIU/ml
• 9 - 12 weeks LMP 25,700 - 288,000 mIU/ml
• 13 - 16 weeks LMP 13,300 - 254,000 mIU/ml
• 17 - 24 weeks LMP 4,060 - 165,400 mIU/ml
• 25 - 40 weeks LMP 3,640 - 117,000 mIU/ml
• non pregnant 55-200 ng/ml

I HOPE, I PRAY, I BELIEVE!

This week has been the most hectic week ever.

I really didn’t enjoy this week that much, as work was piling on my desk, responsibilities became more and then off cause my little old moods because of all the lovely meds and injections. My bum hurts of the Gestone injections and I really feel like I’m burning up because of the HOT flushes

Anyway, there I was on Wednesday morning standing in the garden at work minding my own business and chatting to a lady that works with me, I explained how the meds were making me feel and overall the emotional rollercoaster that I’m on. So this other lady obviously eavesdropping turned around and said: There is a stunning Dr in Pretoria who will sort you out 1.2.3… It’s a Chinese doctor and he specialized in everything, from stress to infertility. Obviously I responded with the fact that I already have a Dr and that I feel very comfortable with this Dr, so then she continued: Why is it that people who is infertile always pray and ask for their baby, why don’t you just go on your knees and start saying thank you. Thank him for the baby his given you. Maybe if you start believing your not infertile and that you are in fact pregnant maybe you’ll have the satisfaction of a baby.

Now that was it…. I was so close at snapping her. I really felt like exploding and screaming at her (which I didn’t do but really wanted to) how the hell will she know. She has never gone through infertility and when she carried her second son, she really tried everything in the book to loose the baby. She drank, she smoked etc, but at the end the baby was born and is now about 6 months.

So anyway, I had to collect my thoughts and emotions and really had to focus on just smiling and then turned and walked back in to the building ignoring basically everything.

Okay so after this whole thing, I felt a bit depressed and just had to get done with the day.

Then this morning….

Early up and off I went for my injection – you will not believe I still can’t do the injections myself. Anyway while I was there I also had blood drawn as I have a progesterone test due today. So I believe, pray and Hope that the progesterone levels are 100% fine. Please, please, please I really need them to be okay. I really need to know if I can get a positive. Do you know how it feels if you have never experienced a positive. Okay except 1 when I was very much younger… I don’t even know if we can have a positive. Man I really hate this feeling and the fact that I doubt in us, so I need to try and stay focused, pray, believe and hope that this will be our cycle

IUI AND MORE!

Good morning all,

I thought that the post for today will cover what has happened in our world the last couple of days

On Wednesday 3 March 2010 (CD15), I had another scan as mentioned in my previous post and everything felt like it was on track. Then Thursday morning came, and with it came spotting. So off cause I was terrified that CD1 is about to come sooner than expected, so I phoned the clinic and they put my mind a little to rest, as it could be because of the scan. So I had to monitor the bleeding and report back if there were any stronger bleeding, which luckily didn’t happen.

Then…

Bright and early on Saturday we were up and ready to dash off to the clinic which is about an hour 15min drive from our home. As we got there they were already waiting for us. So P did what he had to, and we went off to have a breakfast while we were waiting. Then at about 9:30am we returned and we did our pre-ovulation IUI, which really went well, no cervical problems… JIPPY and I spend most of the day relaxing as much as possible. We walked around at the show later on during the day, which was kind of nice, but I really didn’t feel like I did all the years before. It wasn’t really as much fun as the previous years.

Anyway, Sunday morning again up at sparrows fart, went to the Clinic, and this time round they were a bit late. Then the most terrible thing happened... I just can’t believe that people has become so unprofessional, impersonal, unemotional about this whole infertility thing, especially not the people that work with these things daily. The lady asked us for our sample, and because it might take us longer than an hour to get there, she should have known by now that we produce the sample there (O yes and I mentioned it the Saturday). Anyway, there were another couple that also went for IUI, and the guy got his turn to go into the room, she then directed us to another room.

She said: “you can use the room on this side”
Me: “O is there rooms, I’ve never been to one of them:
She: “Yes here you go” pointing towards the room.

As I came around the corner to look at the room she directed us straight into the toilet. Lovely… Fucking Lovely. So there P was, he was so upset he really got that strange look in his eyes, and off cause, I got it… because of a stupid, unemotional bitch lady I got the back end of it, and he said: “You better fall pregnant now I had it with this crap” man I really didn’t know how to deal with it, and I still think I don’t really know how to deal with it. I still feel upset and emotional about this comment. I know it was not directed at me but rather the situation, but still...

Anyway, IUI post-ovulation was done on Sunday 7 march 2010, and I’ve started with the progesterone vaginal cream this morning, I’ll also start with Utrogestan capsules tonight 2x 100mg at night before I go to sleep, and on CD23 (11 March 2010) I’ll start on Gestone injections. Hopefully my body will play its part and absorb the progesterone as needed. All I can do now is wait out my 2 weeks and on 19 March 2010 I’ll do my blood test.

Please hold thumbs…

Wishing all the other ladies lost of luck on their journey... and myself with my own 2ww

SHOW TIME BABY!

Okay, so the Randfontein show has officially started today. So I am very eager to get home and run off to the show, but I'll be stuck in the office till about 7PM tonight which means I'll only get home at about 8PM and I still need to study and tackle the darn assignment which is due on Monday. I'll most probably only be able to dash off to the show on Saturday.

Anyway, went to the clinic today and I was really optimistic and very positive... (Only good vibes), so Dr did my scan, and there they were, my precious (and I really mean they are precious to me) follicles. One measuring a full 19.3mm (this one was the original 15.5) and another one which were initially 14.5 has grown to a full 15mm, there a number of other smaller once measuring +- 13 - 15 so IT'S A GREAT CYCLE LADIES IT'S JUST GREAT! I have never seen more than 1 - 2 follicles, and now it more... (Attracting good vibes)


I believe that my clock has turned and I hope only good things will come my way!


So here's the schedule for the weekend

• Friday - take the Ovidrel injection
• Saturday - First insemination (Before ovulation) 
• Sunday - second insemination (after ovulation)

Update on Scan

Okay, so I went for my CD12 Scan yesterday, and was really very optimistic about it. I have had so many cramps with the injections and meds that I really thought everything in there was going hunky dory!

Anyway, I rediscovered my blood group which I have totally forgotten what group I was (hey but now I know) and the rest of the blood works came back pretty good except for my Sugar levels and Progesterone levels. So this really made me feel down again. Dr have prescribed Glucophage for me and I started using the tablets at night for the first week and then one in the morning and one at night for the next 6 months. So we'll have to see how on earth I’m going to cope with that, as it really makes you run to the loo very very very often.

Over and above this, I got new Fertomid tablets and more Gonal F... Why you'd ask, and the only answer I want to give is my bloody body again, but to put it nicely: My body has once again been on the slow side on CD 12 I have only 2 follicles which are almost there one on the left is 13.5mm and the one on the right is 14.5mm. So another scan has been scheduled for Wednesday to see how the follicles have progressed.

Wish me luck girls... and please please please keep me in your thoughts as I really need thoughts and prayers this cycle! Feeling a bit on the down side

On the working front:

Well we start with our official Night classes today, and believe me when I tell you I doubt if I’m going to make these 3 months. Every Monday we'll be going off at 15:00 as the traffic towards that area is very hectic and the classes start at 5, and I’ll only get home at 23:00 tonight. Luckily hubby will be able to look after himself, and I'll grab something to eat on my way there.

So that's my very quick update... enjoy this week

BAD LUCK!

I have officially decided that yesterday and today was the worst days of this week.

About a month ago, a little sty and infection started to form on my left eye, and when I saw the Dr he gave me some antibiotic and cream to put on, well it never seemed to have gone away. Now about a month later I still had the same bump on my eye which was very irritable and scratchy and last night it just felt like my whole eye was about to fall out. So we decided to go over to our emergency rooms as no Dr’s office is open after 6pm. So at about 7:30 we were at the emergency rooms waiting for the Dr on call to see us.

Off I went into the emergency ward where the Dr saw me, and explained that they would have to make an incision on the eye lid, off cause this would be painful he said, however it something that they would have to do. So they prepared everything and as I was lying there, he made the incision on the left eye lid and squeezed out all the puss. OUCH! Is about all I can say without sounding like the worst sailor ever.

Anyway, as if that wasn’t enough, you see we only left there at about 10pm, which meant that I couldn’t eat anymore. I had some blood works from the Fertility Clinic which I had to go for today and it was suppose to be done fasting. NICE, so bloody nice… Now here is grumpy me, hungry, thirsty and really sore… but I survived.

So on arrival at work, one of my colleagues went with me over to the one clinic close by, we decided to have a walk there as it is about 100 meters from work, nice morning breeze, and what a walk, it was great to be out in the open for a change. Anyway, 10 vials of blood later I walked out of there. We rushed back to work; I got a toasted and coffee, and have never had breakfast so fast in my entire life. I was starving! So Dr testing about everything here are the list (and no official medical explanation but rather my understanding of the test):

1. Glucose fasting (measure the amount of glucose in the blood right at the time of sample collection)
2. Insulin fasting (used, often along with glucose and C-peptide levels, to help diagnose insulinomas and to help diagnose documented acute or chronic (fasting) hypoglycemia)
3. TSII (testing of the Thyroid)
4. Free T4 (Total T4 and free T4 are two separate tests that can help the doctor evaluate thyroid function)
5. FSH (FSH levels are also useful in the investigation of menstrual irregularities and to aid in the diagnosis of pituitary disorders)
6. LH (The LH blood test measures the amount of luteinizing hormone)
7. 17-B Oestradiol (E2) (associated with changes in ovarian steroid levels)
8. Progesterone (measures the amount of the hormone progesterone in a blood sample)
9. Free Testosterone (needed for hormonal balance and to help women’s bodies to function normally)
10. Growth hormones (Growth hormones are the chemical stimulation that initiates cell division, bone growth, and a number of other physical processes within the human body)
11. Prolactin (ordered along with other tests, when a woman is experiencing infertility or irregular menses)
12. Antenatal (Incl. HIV) (testing things like your blood group, Rhesus factor, Iron levels, red blood cell abnormalities, Syphilis, German measles, hepatitis B, and HIV)
13. B-HCG Quantitative (pregnancy test)
14. Phospholipid antibodies (testing antibodies – complications caused by Antiphospholipid Antibody could cause miscarriages)
15. ANF (anti Nuclear factor – is an antibody. The presence of this antibody raises a number of possibilities – positive test possibility of Arthritis, Scleroderma.)

So this is my bit of bad luck these 2 days, and O Yes AF haven’t started yet (which is for some reason a bit odd it normally starts on day 26 of my cycle) but I’ll have to wait for day 28 to arrive as it might be because of the fact that I’m not using any medicine at this moment, so Dr said it could have an impact on this months cycle. Anyway we are waiting for AF to either come (which will be sad, but then we can start the process) or stay away (which will be the ideal, because that will mean that I got it right) so either or, I’m trying to cope everyday with the thoughts that there might be a BFP, but also with the knowing that it actually will take a miracle to have a BFP on our own, but who knows what our little rocky road has in store for us.

Now I’m waiting in anticipation for AF, and my test results… so wish me luck!

OKAY HERE'S SOME FEEDBACK

I really didn’t know how to type up this message. I’m sooooooooooooooooo two minded about everything.

To start off with, we went to see the social worker, which was amazingly calm, almost to calm / relaxed. She took us through the whole adoption process, cost and everything else that goes with it. We had to register at one of the houses they currently work from etc. Then the house returned a mail with the cost estimations on their side and everything that goes with it, and now I feel a bit concerned.

You see, the thing is… even though I think we have made up our minds; there is still a part of us holding on to what we’re currently doing. Yes we could spend this small fortune and adopt, or we could try 2 more IVF’s or what ever is in store for us, we have also not yet considered a surrogate yet, and my sister in law so willingly offered the other day.

I feel a bit torn between all of these decisions, and need some guidance; so I booked an appointment with our IF Clinic and will discuss all our options with them on Friday 12 February 2010. I really hope that after this meeting I’ll be able to walk out and know what we need to do. I totally feel out of control, and I’m normally such an in control person. It just really isn’t making any sense right now. I just don’t know how to make the decision right now, and I hope Friday will give me some direction.

I know there are many of you that have gone through all of these emotions, and have decided the one or the other, and I’ll appreciate your views.

OUR UPDATE

Hi there,

Well I haven’t really been able to write anything the last couple of weeks or month maybe, but I’ve really been so hectic at work.

Like most of you would know I have changed jobs and the project that I am currently working on takes 24 hours of my day and I just don’t have any more time for myself, even though I try to make time, but hey that’s not what I want to talk about today or shall I say I don’t want to talk about the job.

Well I’ve had a couple of discussions on this side regarding us planning for a bigger family, and was asked to provide more feedback on how it works. I did, however I will not be able to leave the office like I use to, nor will I be able to go as and when I need to. Currently working hours is from 8:15 – 16:30, and there is just no way that I am able to get to a clinic either before or after the hours. So hubby and I debated it for a while, and I know this might seem desperate, but we couldn’t let a whole year pass before we plan again. I mean we really looked through all possibilities, but just couldn’t find a clinic that will be able to assist. So we decided to go to a homeopath again.

I know you might say it’s a waist of time, but I think it brings me peace of mind, and for now that is what I need because I’ll just stress about it if we don’t do anything. I know that I can’t get my hopes up, but somehow I also need to remain positive.

So anyway last night was our first appointment at the homeopath (who is open odd hours… off cause this is great for me) and I enjoyed the experience. When we arrived, we signed in, and then went into her rooms and she did a proper examination on both me and hubby. I got 2 injections on both of my sides, just above my ovaries, and hubby also got 2 injections on the sides…. Nice hey, at least hubby is also going through puncturing… he has never been treated, and this is the first time that he actually gets as much attention as what I’m getting. Obviously he got treated in terms of providing him with a couple of tablets to swallow but that was the only treatment he got. Anyway, after all the injections, blood pressure and sugar test etc we then left the rooms and had to wait in reception while she prepared the medication / herbs for us. We sat there about 45min, and then she came out with a couple of bottles in different bags. To start off with hubby takes some tablets in the morning and at night, he also got some or other syrup which he has to use once a day in the morning, oooo and believe me, the stuff smells terrible. Then we have some tablets for detocs and stress relieves which we both have to use, and off because I got my own. I also got a couple of tablets which I take at night and in the mornings, one of these tablets I have to use from day 1 – 4 and then from day 5 -14 of my cycle I also use a syrup which smells worse that hubbys', and then from day 15 – 28 I use the tablets again… then weekly we’ll be going back for our injections. Well this will continue for about 3 months where after the Dr will decide whether we will change herbs or remain on the existing herbs.

Then off cause I got a lovely cross pendant, which I can wear, and hubby bought me a bracelet as they was selling it from the shop in the wellness centre. The cross was lying with a little prayer, and when we saw it, it made us think that this could be a great reminder for us. It reads:

Our Father, please hear the prayer of this infertile. You know our deepest whishes and desires and most of all the desire of our own little child.

Father guide us in all our choices, give us the blessing of your love, give us the courage and a little one to hold, to love to cherish and care for,

Please dear Father Grant that my body may conceive and give birth to our healthy, beautiful baby, please Father in good time, grant us our new life.

In Christ’s name,

Amen

I really thought this is truly something special for both me and P and the poem truly reflect our prayers and desire, and we believe that we conceive in good time, but sometimes it’s just not so easy to wait for the good time…

So for now ladies and gents, I will not be able to provide you with any information on Clinical / Medical procedures, but I’ll only be able to share what we will be going through moving forward in terms of homeopathic treatment, but I hope that you will still stop by my blog and that I’ll still hear from you.

Well that’s the information from my side for now.

Take care!

Messy Business

So as you might know by now, I went on my business trip to Secunda yesterday, and things just didn't work out the way they planned. So I'm back in Johannesburg in the office today doing some prep work, and will be going again tomorrow morning, up and down and up and down... one can't believe how tiring the trips are. Really not the best way to start or end a week, but I just have to see it through. like I said, I will leave again tomorrow morning and then return on Friday, spend the weekend at home with hubby and leave again early Monday morning.... 

The insemination went very well, and I really feel on top of the world, I go for the injections every morning and am very committed like I should be. Hubby even accompany me on my visit at the hospital for the injections in the mornings, which is great, at least I see he is also committed. He also started using the stamino-grow and sperm aid again (I suppose he's sceptic of what might happen with the fact that the sperm mobility and quality is decreasing), but he's at least willing and dedicated.\

We had a stunning weekend, and we were so excited about the Blue bulls winning... and just have to make arrangements again to watch them in action this weekend... but I suppose we have to wait and see what happens

HERE WE GO AGAIN

So here I am at the hospital having breakfast all on my own. Ha that's the first for me. I don't like to do these things on my own. Anyway, I saw Dr L on Wednesday, and after all the meds and injectables my follie is 24mm, jippy, jippy, there is only 1 but the 1 will do! So Dr injected me to start ovulating, and our planning once again started. So this morning Hubby had to be strong and face the little room, and I will be going in at 10 for the insemination, which will count as the day before ovulation, and then again tomorrow for the day after ovulation. Anyway while all these things is taking place in my life. I moved on from the site I was doing work for, was on training for 3 days, and as I finished off the last day got placed out for an asignment in Secunda. So I will be spending my next 2 weeks there and weekends with hubby. Not that I want to but hey that's the line of work I chose, and after the 2 week asignment hopefully I will know to which site I will be contracted out to. I suppose all good things comes to those who wait. Well that is it for today. I'll check in later and give you another update

PATHETIC... THAT'S ALL

Well last night at about 5:30 I received a call from the Drs’ offices, and they confirmed meds I had to start taking today… well this morning. Luckily for me, I was able to make quick arrangements as a lady that works in the chemist also stay where I do, I had to pay the pharmacy and then she could take it out. The only thing was that she worked from 18:00-21:00 which meant she only gets home at about 22:00. So at 22:10 last night, I drove to her house and picked up the meds that I had to start taking. So this morning, I got up before the break of day… and at about 05:45 I was sitting in the emergency services at our hospital for my injection. Well that’s about the only place that gives injections this early, as hubby is such a chicken, and I just can’t. I have Trypanophobia, now you might laugh, but it’s so... so... so true. Now going there for the first time as all the other times I could just take the injection at the fertility clinic, it was rough. I had to complete a form to open a file, which apparently I need to do every morning I come, they asked for my ID, medical card and prescription (which I didn’t took with me), so I explained that I don’t have the prescription with me and I will be able to fax it through, the lady agreed to the arrangement and made me sit and wait while they prepare… and I sat… and I sat. Then the head nurse (or what ever she is) came out, and gave me a whole story of they can’t inject me as…. (And I through my tamper tantrum) I just had enough of the waiting, I’ll be late for work as it is, and hubby to, I just couldn’t believe that they can take so long to inject someone with the meds and swaps the person already have with them… the other hospital didn’t have an issue. Anyway, I grabbed my injection stuff, and hubby just followed, got into the car at about 6:45 and went to the other hospital. Darn, if I just knew they would have these issues, I wouldn’t have gone. Anyway we were late, late for work that is. So I quickly dropped off hubby at his work, and went through to another hospital at the fertility clinic, and they gave me the injection without hassles. Never the less, I rocked up at work an hour late, frustrated and very temperamental. So this I would assume is going to be my every 2nd day routine, unless I can find the guts to just do it myself, and it going to become more difficult now with the fact that I’m moving between companies. I just don’t know how I’ll be able to manage with the appointments…. How do you all do it?

IT'S AN OFFICIAL BFN

Okay, so this morning while I did my blood work the lady that took the blood mentioned that on Monday when I did my first blood, just after me a 16 year old girl also did the same blood test. Hers of cause turned out positive and apparently she was devastated, but on the other hand there is me... so desperate, so hopeful and yet I am unable to obtain a BFP. So while I was listening this morning I truly hoped that this will be my day, but yet it isn't! Why, why, why... So I now received the results of my 2nd test which were done today, and it official. It's definitely not a positive. So no more tablets and Crinone gel for now. I'm awaiting AF which needs to show up before Friday next week, if it doesn't I will get some medication to bring it on... So there we have it.

8 Days Late

Ok so AF still hasn’t arrived which means I am already 8 days into my next cycle….

Is this good news or bad news?????????

This morning I went for another blood test as requested by Dr, and am awaiting the results… but while I wait I couldn’t have imagined how slow time goes by. They say time flies when you’re having fun, and when you’re not… darn, I wish I wish it could have been quicker.

I’m so hopeful, I’m so anxious, and I know I’m getting each and every little hope there is up. Am I in for a roller coaster ride of emotions when I get the results, or will I be overwhelmed?

Anyway, for now, I’m exited; and hopeful and hopefully this little bubble of hope and dreams wouldn’t blow up into tiny pieces of heartache

COUNTING HOURS

Hi there and thank you for each and every comment. I went through for my blood test this morning and await the results. Can't wait but I'm also scared. No Af yet and I'm 4 days over, but everyone says its because of the Crinone 8% gel that I'm using. Will keep you posted later today

ALL-ROUND UPDATE

Hi there everyone stopping by and thank you for your visits… I have to be honest and say I love the ICLW weeks. First time I’m part of it and I’m sure it will definitely not be the last… Anyway, as you all know (for those who doesn’t you’ll catch up quick), I went for my scan and mucus testing yesterday 21 April 2009, which the results were no so good, I really hoped that everything would be fine, but once again my body has a mind of it’s own. So my acidity levels were so high, none of our little natural attempt swimmers survived it… darn, what is going on with my body. The other day with the tests the acidity was fine… but Dr truly calmed me down and still recommended that we carry out the insemination today. So I got a little tummy injection, and waited for today… So Mr P (hubby) was very brave this morning! Shame I still giggle when I think about it, but he was disgusted with me anyway! Seeing that all the previous attempts we managed to get our little swimmer to the lab in about 45min, this morning it would have been a disaster trying to attempt this. We just live to far away. So Mr P decided that he’ll rather take up the moment at the clinic. I warned him, and one of our friends warned him it’s not the same as at home, but he was confident it wouldn’t have an impact, but off cause I had to go with. So we got up before the sparrows even thought about it, and off we went to the Dr. Arrived at about 7:30 and we had to have it in by 8:00, off we went to the little room, and all I could do was giggle. I just couldn’t stop myself this morning. I think it’s because every time I talk about the fact that I still feel shy when I lay there legs stretched he thinks it’s not all bad, and now it’s he’s tern and he feels embarrassed. I really had fun this morning. We laughed together and even though you could see he feels uncomfortable he was so sweet about it. We then went for a quick breakfast and he took off for work. I off cause had to stay behind. At about 9:15 I was called to go to the rooms, got undressed and relaxed for about 15 min before doctor arrived. He is such a blessing, I feel so blessed to have found this doctor. He made me feel comfortable in explaining everything, hubby’s mobility, motility, and quality is great. (I’m glad as the previous samples had issues), and doctor then started with the process. I believe everything went well. I hope I pray and I’ll keep faith that it went great. Now I still need to inject myself Saturday and use creams, tablets, Viagra (YIPPY) and on the 4th of May I will officially go for my hopeful BFP test, unless AF jumps the gun. So ladies and gents there you have it… now let’s hope and pray!