I try daily to look at my life as if I'm looking throught the eyes of a Stranger. They say that you can't judge a person if you haven't walked in their shoes, but the grass looks always greener on the other side. I try and take myself out of my situations, looking at it, as if I was a stranger to it, and based on that motivate myself daily with things that only other might see...
08 May 2009
IT'S AN OFFICIAL BFN
Okay, so this morning while I did my blood work the lady that took the blood mentioned that on Monday when I did my first blood, just after me a 16 year old girl also did the same blood test. Hers of cause turned out positive and apparently she was devastated, but on the other hand there is me... so desperate, so hopeful and yet I am unable to obtain a BFP.
So while I was listening this morning I truly hoped that this will be my day, but yet it isn't! Why, why, why... So I now received the results of my 2nd test which were done today, and it official. It's definitely not a positive.
So no more tablets and Crinone gel for now. I'm awaiting AF which needs to show up before Friday next week, if it doesn't I will get some medication to bring it on...
So there we have it.
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Sorry to hear this. That first realization always make my heart ache so much. I know how you feel. Especially when someone else, who doesn't even want what we are desperate for, gets the news that they are pregnant. I don't understand it. I don't understand why it works this way.
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