Desperation

Why is it that when you are allowed to have anything, you don’t feel like having it, and when you aren’t you desperately need it…? This is how I feel today; I’m in need of tons of coffee… chocolates… and just everything else, and because Dr L said that I mustn’t drink coffee, now I want to… I love coffee and not being able to get the caffeine fix I usually get is draining me. Man life would be so great if I could have my coffee back, but I suppose anything and everything for a opportunity to become mommy.