A whole mouth full

Well I haven’t been able to write anything since September and I have to be honest, I really didn’t feel like it either. Since then so many things has changed in my life. Acupuncture is still underway, I still go weekly to be punctured all over, not sure when this will become enough in my life… seeing that all little things is starting to get the better of me. I really feel so moody these days, and the slightest little things will irritate the living daylights out of me. I suppose it’s just the time of the year when one starts to reflect on the past year, and realise that you still have not accomplished what you so hoped for. On the other hand, our two pups are great; there isn’t a day that they don’t fill my life with joy. Devonté had a knee operation last month, and he healed very well. He is up and going again, and it almost seems as if he had no problem. On the other hand, Uschcá is growing up so quickly, she is so sweet… sometimes I really think we should have named her licky tongue, cause every time she comes close to you she starts to lick you all over. She is rally gorgeous. On 15 December my cousins’ wife gave birth to their second child a healthy little boy, but on the other hand one of my friends also miscarried on the same day… so you find yourself in a whirl of emotions, glad for the one and heartbroken with the other one, especially because they have also been struggling to fall pregnant for a while, and all we can do is be there for them, listen and support where we are needed. Work wise… now this is a challenge, we are restructuring, O yes, be big “R” word: Restructuring. With this it really brings up a whole bunch of stuff, and even though I am not a permanent worker for this company and only contracting through my company at this one, it still influences you greatly. For once in my life I could say that I really enjoyed the team I’ve been working with, and now some of us are moving out, we will join new teams. I suppose change is the inevitable, and we would just have to settle in where ever we are moved to, however the uncertainty is killing me. They say that a change is as good as a holiday, but I doubt if this change will be as good as a holiday if we just come from holiday. Now it’s just the big wait to see what and where to from now. Really not a great place to be in prior to the festive season, and having to deal with this till January when these changes will effectively take place. Ag but I’ll have to quickly learn to place these thoughts on the sideline so that I can have a great festive and New Year. I’m greeting for now, but will make sure I add something more often. Thank you for all the mails received from you all so far. Enjoy the day

Accupuncture Session 8

Another day of acupuncture, I really didn’t feel my bright and smiling self. We have gone through a difficult time as a family, and yes, I still suffer from my headaches. So today I went off to the acupuncture, which for once I truly enjoyed. As I arrived I had my pulse and blood pressure taken. Then off to the needles room… Well one in each arm I got just above the bend of the upper arm, 3 needles in the legs, one on the calf, the other just above the knee, and one in the ankle… on the tummy I got plenty, I stopped counting at 8 because I truly became a bit nervous, then one on the head, and one on each side of my forehead, which will help with the headache. Electrodes got connected onto the needles in my tummy, and now I just had to relax for 30 minutes… After my 30 minutes all the needles were removed, and me and hubby got some new herbals to take in the morning and evening with luke warm water for 2 weeks… Anyway, Dr asked me to have a pregnancy test done on Sunday, even though I had my period, it still seamed as if there might be something… so Hey such is life… we just need to hang in there and see

Acupuncture session 7

Today was another day of acupuncture, and I’m sure it almost sounds like a monotonous thing, well it sounds and feel like it, but I will do anything and everything for an opportunity to become a mommy. I think people who aren’t struggling with fertility problems, don’t understand what we are going through. Even though they try and be so sympathetic, what the hell, I don’t believe it anyway. Anyway, there I was going for my seventh acupuncture session… got there and due to a Chinese holiday Dr L was unable to assist me and her husband also a herbalist and acupuncturist assisted for the day, seeing that Dr L needs to do the woman duties and cook for the big occasion. So there I was feeling a bit out of place because I’m a bit taken out of my comfort zone with the other doctor, but hey, lets just do this… So the Dr started by taking my pulse, and asked a couple of questions, how am I feeling, do I think my body is changing, do I feel stronger etc. and I started giving all the answers… I feel crappy, my breasts is tender, my head aches from time to time, my left ovary wants to pop out, and no sleep is not an option, I feel like sleeping beauty… I sleep, sleep and sleep my life away. Then he took my right arm, and started feeling my pulse on the right arm… now he asks to stick out the tongue, to which I had a giggle but did it anyway. He quickly excused himself and went out! Then Dr L stepped in with her husband, she then felt the pulse on my left arm, then the right arm, then both, and the babble on in a language that only they will understand, the more they talk, the more worried I became. Then she asked me again, how are you feeling, your breasts, tummy, do you go to the loo normal? To which I once again had to reply, breasts… mmm, are we talking about these two things on my chest that feels like overgrown grapes, it’s so tender / sore I want to cry if my clothing touches them, my tummy is fine, my ovary feels like they want to pop, and yes I run to the loo very often, but are a bit constipated… but I suppose there’s nothing about it, just the way of nature. Maybe it’s because my body is cleaning out or something who knows…. After the explanation once again I went off to the acupuncture room, there the two Doctors stood still talking in the foreign language, discussing where the needles should go, so I got a needle in the head, one on each arm on the bend of the arm, one in my lower leg almost on my foot on each leg, one on the calf of each leg, one just above the knee of each leg, and one on each side of my ovaries, there I laid and ponder on what the big discussion was all about, I laid there and ponder for about 45 minutes. After the session Dr L came to remove the needles, and she requested that I take new herbal medicine, 10 in the morning and 10 at night, with warm water… no food or drink 30 min prior to taking medicine, nor am I allowed anything 30 min post taking medicine… On my way out, I asked Dr L what they were discussing as it really made me very uncomfortable, I knew that they were discussing me, but what about me… she replied that I must go and relax, try not to stress, or pick up anything heavy, sleep as much as what you need, no hands above the head, and try not to get exited… I then asked but why… Dr L replied that she doesn’t want to say anything seeing that it might make me exited and I insisted that she please tell me, he reply was that “we think”… “We think… there might be baby in tummy, we now wait and see” my jaw fell open; I was stunned, now it’s the big wait. Obviously the herbalists doesn’t have any technology to test, and I would know 18 September 2008, as CD1 is due, and I’ll first see if I miss my period or what ever happens… now I need to be peaceful, and leave this for the BIG Man, to decide my faith. Thought I’ll share with you all, please remember me in your prayers.

Crazy day and accupuncture session 6

What a hectic day it was! Sjoe just before the weekend, I had to be up at sparrow fart to be at the hospital this morning. My best friend from schools little girl had to have her tonsils removed today. Anyway, as I arrived at the hospital I felt a bit stressed out as she wasn’t there yet. Phoned her just to make sure I didn’t mishear where she said they had it done. Eventually they arrived and the little one got checked in. In the room now this is about 06:10 AM we were all still droopy eyed sitting and staring at one another, except for the little one, she just wanted to go home. Eventually at about 8:00 AM they came to fetch her from the room to have her tonsils removed. My friend had to carry her into theatre while her dad and I were waiting outside in the waiting area. Shame my friend was so stressed out, I really felt for her. After the tonsils had been removed she came out of theatre screaming from the pain, we went to the room, where she didn’t want anything to do with her mommy, and were laying on daddies shoulder while she tried to calm down. After a while she woke up and sat with mommy. Then back to daddy, and so it continued for about an hour and a half, she then wanted to sit with “Tannie Stefanie”. O MY… I felt so uncomfortable because I wasn’t sure what everyone else’s reaction would be, but I took her and she fell asleep on my chest as I sat on a chair. There she slept off most of the gas or whatever they get. Now prior to her going into theatre daddy and mommy promised that they will go show her the new puppy in our home, so as we left she remembered and wanted to travel back with me. So mommy joined, and off we went to my place. As we arrived she had a look at the new puppy, sat and had a little coke and some cheese curls, after which they left. This was about 13:30, so not much time left for me before my acupuncture session. So I went and prepared and eventually took off to the acupuncture… JIPPY As I got to doctor L, she welcomed me, asked about the planning things, and off I went to the needle room. Once again I had to lay on my back, 4 needles in the tummy, 2 in the arms, 3 in the legs and one in the head… no electrodes and now… sweet dreams… zzzzzzzzzz After about 45 minutes, Dr L came to wake me, she then removed the needles, and I still felt drowsy, I could still have easily slept another 45 minutes. No bottles this time, no medicine, no medicine for hubby…. She removed the needle from my right ear, and placed a new needle in the left ear, which I need to wear for this week… my new session is scheduled for Friday…

Acupuncture sessions 5

Once again another day of acupuncture and this time Pieter didn’t have to go again. Interesting how the acupuncture works though. When I got there, we first had a little discussion in terms of how and when to plan… so cycle day 11, 13 and 15 should be the priority on our calendar, plan, plan, plan and plan a little more. She then once again took my blood pressure, and off I went into the room, Dr Leigh requested that I lay on my back, take off my watch, socks and loosen my belt. Once again she opens her little needles one by one from the packet, placing them gently. She places one in my calf of each leg, placing the other one just above my knees, and one very low on my leg almost on the foot. Moving up on the arms, she places one in the forearm, one on the wrist and one almost on the bend of you arms. Then again the belly… mmmm, will I get electrodes this time? Or will I just be lucky enough to go without and have a nice snooze.. she palces 4 needles on the belly, in a cross like shape, and one on the head… Ouch! Ouch! And then she link the electrodes to all 4 of the needles placed on the tummy. I had to wait and feel when I feel the electrodes flow through the needles, and when it reaches the point where you feel all 4 she leaves it like that and you lay and have your snooze (if you can) for about 30 minutes. I have to say that for someone who is scared of needles it’s really not that bad. I started dozing off, and by the time I could feel myself going into a nice sleep, the buzzer went off and woke me. Aaa the time has flown by, time to take off the electrodes and remove all the needles. Once again Dr Leigh took her little glass bottles, and lit the piece of cotton, and then she placed it inside the bottle for it to start a little flame, and places the bottles on my back. If I’m not mistaken I counted about 6 bottles, hey but I can be wrong seeing that I don’t have eyes on my back. I sat there with these pieces of glass sucking away on the flesh of my back. It pulls the skin and it’s really becomes a bit sensitive after a while. So I sat for about 10 minutes while Dr Leigh also assisted another patient. After the 10 minutes had gone by, she came and removed the bottles on by one, and when she removes it, it really is a pleasant feeling, she then rubs and ointment onto these marks and off you go. She then also placed a little round needle this time in the right ear, I now need to have this in for this week, and she will remove the needle on Friday. No medicine for 2 weeks, and another acupuncture session coming up Friday. Poor Pieter still has to take his bit of medicine, 8 in the morning and 8 at night with luke warm water.

Acupuncture sessions 4

Hey there, we had one very interesting session this morning at 10:00 AM. Well first of all we had the electrician coming over to lay a new electrical cable in the garden, so that I can officially switch on the new garden fountain. I was so excited to get the fountain working. I think that my garden really looks like a fairy fantasy. Anyway, we had to be at the acupuncturist at 10:00 am for our first session together. Got there, and I had the same routine as normal, blood pressure is tested, some questioning in terms of CD1 which started, then the 2 needles again in the arms, 3 in the legs this time, 4 on the belly and one again in the head, but this time no electrodes were added onto the needles on the belly, instead a little box were placed on the lower belly, with some stuff that they burn in there. This warms up the belly to relieve some of the pain. So there I lay for 30 minutes, while I was laying there Pieter also started with his session. He had to lay face done, he got 2 needles in the neck, one in the arm just below the bend, one in his legs just above the ankle and 4 on his back in a cross like shape, and off cause he got electrodes added on the needles on his back, and he had to lay for 30 minutes. After I completed my 30 minutes, once again the bottle warming session started and I got 5 bottles. One at the top of my spine, then 2 underneath that, another 2 underneath that, and the last one almost on my bum, and while I was waiting for the 10 minutes to pass, the doctor came to explain the medication that Pieter has to take. He also has to take 8 little herbal tables with luke warm water in the mornings and evenings. I just continue with the medicine I was given in my previous session. After the 30 minutes that Pieter had to lay there, he also started with his bottle session, he got 4 one on the top of his spine, 2 underneath that on his kidneys, and one almost on his bum… and he waited. After the session we both were so relaxed and really felt so good. We drove home and discussed the weekend that was still ahead. What a stunning peaceful weekend! Hope your weekend was as great as mine!

Acupuncture sessions 3

Another day of acupuncture! And she changed my medicine today. Sometimes I can’t believe that I am actually going through with this needle thing. The more I think about it the more I realise how desperate I have become. Desperate for a child in our life, I would never have done this type of thing before, and here I am, the 3rd session, and not that I am forced, I am going out of my own. So the same old story… blood pressure, take off watch, shoes, socks and loosen up everything around the waste. This time a little more needles is involved she explained. So once again 1 needle went into my calve, the other needle goes just above the foot, the other above the knee, again one in the forearm, the other just as you bend your arm on both ends, this time 4 in the belly, and one again in the head… Hells bells that one hurts… once again the electrode machine are placed on all these needles in the belly, and you are left to lay there for 30 minutes. And again After the 30 minutes the timer went off, and she came to remove all needles. Then she took the bottles and this time 6 of these and she lightens them up, places it on my back again and made me sit there for about 10 minutes this time… when you move it almost sounds like bells coming from afar, meantime it bottles hanging on your back…. What a silly thought anyway. I can’t see why this bottle thing should work, but hey, I’m not the doctor. They know best and they understand the body much better than what I do, so I just keep believing this is going to work and have faith. Once again she comes and removes these bottles hanging like grapes from my back, pulling off one by one, and she rubbed the ointment in. Every time she does that, its really a relieve. I love the smell. It smells like peppermint… and it gives your back a tingly feeling… it warms your back and you really feel great after that… except for the marks these nasty little bottles leave on your back for weeks! Anyway, at the end of this session, she removed the little nasty devil of a round needle from my ear. What relieve one can’t imagine how such a little piece of steel can hurt you! Thanks goodness its out

Acupuncture sessions 2

Here I am once again at another acupuncture session. Well today is different as hubby decided to join me seeing that he is at home, due to his operation. So he had a seat on the bed opposite to where I was laying. Once again the same little routine, blood pressure, take off watch, socks, shoes and loosen everything around the tummy… and almost the same as the previous session happened, so not really much I can tell you which was different. Except for the fact that this time hubby was there with me, this was really a pleasant experience for me! Anyway, she then turned to me at the end of our session and had a tiny little tweezers and a packet in her hand. She then explains that she will be placing a little round needle in my ear, she will start with the left ear, just to ensure that my body strengthens quickly. She then placed this little round needle in the top of my left ear with the tweezers and I had to walk with that for a whole week, until I see her again, man o man… how does anybody scared of needles survive that….

Acupuncture sessions started

Well after a couple of months only taking medicine, I have now started with the acupuncture again. I have contacted a Chinese herbalist and started acupuncture through them. I have to say that starting the acupuncture was not a pleasant thought seeing that I am such a sissy when it comes to needles. Needless to say, more that one needle normally makes me want to faint. Anyway, got to the rooms, and met Dr Leigh, what a stunning lady. She truly made me feel very comfortable. She did my blood pressure testing, and explained the whole procedure and how acupuncture will affect my body, she also asked a couple of questions relating to our infertility. After this we went through to a room with massage like beds, heaters, machines etc… To start of, I had to take off my watch, socks and loosen my belt. When she entered she explained where she will be placing her needles and on what we will be focussing for the first couple of sessions, and so she started. Opening her little needles one by one from the packets, putting one in my calf of each leg, placing the other one just above my knees of cause both legs, then moving up on the arms, she placed another in my forearm just above my wrist, and the other just where your arm bends on both end of the bend… once again both arms, then she opened my belly, and place seven needles on my belly, couldn’t really see the pattern she formed, and then she smiled and said only one more left… She took the last little needle and pushed it on top of my head… OUCH! Anyway, she places a little electrode machine on each of the needles in my tummy, and with the pulse flowing through these needles I laid there for 30 minutes, and relaxed… that was nice through. After the 30 minutes the timer went off, and she came to remove all needles. Not bad, not bad at all. Then she turned around and took 4 little glass bottles, a piece of cotton, and a lighter. I thought what the… she then puts the cotton wool in surgical spirits, and lightens this, put it in the bottle, and then quickly places this on my back in like a cross shape. One by one she did the 4 bottles. I could feel the bottles sucking in my skin, and the cooler these bottles becomes the more it pulls your skin… It’s really not a pleasant feeling while you sit there and these 4 bottles hangs like grapes from you back… after about 5 minutes or so, she then removes these bottles from your back one by one, as she pulls them off you feel the relieve and heat coming out of that spot, she then takes some or other ointment which she rubs into your back. This apparently in conjunction with the bottles helps for your blood flow and alleviates some month end pains… Well after this, the session came to an end… I really felt good, that I can tell you! She handed me a bottle of round little tables, which I need to take 10 every morning and every evening with luke warm water. Lets’ just wait and see